A Lonely Soul

So long since I last Wrote..

2006-02-16T03:01:00.000+08:00

Sorry ah readers lol... Playing too much game lately and assignments also piling up. therefore not inuff time to blog. Anyway, finally get the chance to blog again. I started playing MS again. Formed a Guild called PhoenixMyths. I had a bunch of good guild member. Anyway I made a forum for them. Check it out - http://p4.forumforfree.com/phoenixmyths.html

Thats all for today. ^^

Friends

2005-10-24T21:19:00.000+08:00

Never go out for so long... everyday except work is stay at home. Looks like me and her gap is getting slightly bigger during these days. Sad.

Anyway i found myslf a new friend. Shes a promoter for F&N. Know her from NTUC.. she promote Daisy Milk. Her name is Elaine... so nice name.. suits her. Shes very playful, there is rumor that her bf is the merchandiser for F&N... hmm.. maybe i'll investigate a little. haha... im getting more kpo these few days, mayb all these can be my research for my new game idea. haha..

Deb is serious quite stressful over family and relationship problem. Wonder if i could help her... im not very good at talking.. hopes wont irritate her ba.

Thats all about my friends for today.. i'll stop here for the day.

If there is really god, I wish that you would bless all my friends.. give them half of my happiness and joy. Love...

Movie "GOAL"

2005-10-19T23:26:00.000+08:00

Finally get to watch movie with Weiling... the special feeling is all along there and I feels very nervous and awkward. I think I really did fall badly again, poisoned from heart to every parts of my body, even my feelings, thinkings and reaction act as they like. I was only hoping to take a picture with her but was being rejected. Guess that we still can't really act normal. It is easy to climb from stranger to lover, but always hard from good friend to lover. People already got used to having u around, hence never feels the feeling anymore.

Love was ever so painful not becos of the process is tiring, its becos it comes with feeling, by the time it really comes, you might have already did many wrong things. I really wish to be with her forever if possible... if not, at least let me be by her side, I'll always be a listener, that's all I wished...

No matter how the future becomes...I'll always remember this night... this night which we spend together alone. I love you....

The SteamPLATE!

2005-10-17T11:42:00.000+08:00

I went late to Chong Chen house for the bbq... but it rain so dead hard that we decided to change to steamboat. I met Jesslyn on the way and we went together. Her new hairstyle makes her look more refresh and prettier.
The steamboat turn out to be steamplate...we were cooking on the steamboat thingy without the bowl of soup haha... but it was fun and qianni talked alot haha...
After that, we took a classphoto... i wish i could post it..mayb after someone design my blog hehe.
melvin, peiyi, jian zhi, jesslyn and me was lucky to take the last train home haha. It was so fun... hopes to have another outing soon. ^^

Busy week not ending yet

2005-10-16T00:08:00.000+08:00

Today went to watch a movie with my friends again. Its a funny movie and the first time I eat SUBWAY.. haha.. hard to believe right? I never eat subway before. Okay, its pretty delicious, might try it again ^^
My bbq is coming tomorrow, oh wow im looking forward to it.
Anyway, Deb says she might help me do with this blog, hmm... looking forward to it too.
Time to play DOTA... i'll write again tomorrow ^^

Holiday

2005-10-13T23:17:00.000+08:00

Maybe I'm not so good at blogging after all, each time i couldnt think of much to write at it.
Its been so long since I last wrote. OK. Btw I found myself another job, that is working as GM for the company called @Corner. Know whats that? GM Stands for Game Master.
Was so tired working 3 jobs lately.. busy in and out, not even have time to breathe some fresh air. So went swimming with Hong Ru and his twin brother yesterday at Toa Payoh swimming pool to play and relax myself. Was so fun at there, tho not even 1 chio bu around, we created alot of funny game to amuse ourselves. I really enjoyed myself. And after that we went to eat "Ban Mian" and Goreng Pisang. Woot, it was delicious.
Today is a more boring day, went to work at @corner and they got new rule, that is we have to record what we do, just like what we do during our semester game project haha. Anyway, it was so bored.
I was so longing for tomorrow. Because tomorrow is Chien Kiat, our Nai Pa birthday. Was a really happy day partially because Weiling will be there. Hmm... and Sunday Chong Chen invited the nyp DMD0402 to bbq at his place. WOW, finally a series of event coming up to release my stress.
Thinking of it, this blog is running on template and it looks sucky, I'm not so good at my web design, hmm.. maybe I should look for someone to design for me alittle.
Who should I look for? I'll think about it tomorrow... now sleep early and get enough sleep to see Weiling tomorrow. JIAYOU KER HSIEN ^^

Im back again

2005-05-06T21:28:00.000+08:00

Finally I'm back again.. Picked up all feelings and get ready to move on with my long life journey ahead. Lately, except for working, I'm only socialising with peoples inside games.. maybe sometime go out play Basketball with Boom Tom, Mingde, Michelle and Bing Quan. Other than that I'm like 100% at home. Was playing some bike stunt the other day and injured my wrist badly, now couldn't even turn my wrist haha.
The bruise is so huge and my mum was saying how could i still laugh. Even when i go out with my dad, his leg got cut by the sharp edges of the door, the whole skin peeled off and was bleeding profusely... I feels like fire burning in my heart, all my fault. I'm like picking up misfortune together with those sad feelings. Looks like I have to really avoid everyone else for this week. Anyway, I got to know that I'm into Games Designing!! My dreamed specialisation. FInally a piece of great news. I'm overjoyed, couldn't use words to show my happiness.
If anyone was looking for a game to play.. come join me, I'm always no 1! I'll end here for today. Take care everyone ^^

The Past

2004-10-04T09:39:00.000+08:00

Once a 12 years old boy had a crush with his classmate but he didn't dare to ask her to go steady with him. It was his first time having this kind of feeling and he don't know what to do. He became very good buddy with that girl, little did he know that the girl had the same feeling to him. Many of his friends seeing him being so close with that girl began to ask him to help them ask her out. He always did as told and the girl rejected one by one, he actually had the feeling of heart pain each time he help others to ask her out. He finally decided to be her guardian and see her from afar, he tease her everytime. Soon his love for her grew, when he finally decided to tell the girl how he feel, the girl told him, "I'm going steady with XXX" XXX was the boy's best friend and he wishes for them... It was the first time he feels his heart being emptied and it was really very very lonely... Later on, he found out from the girl that she actually like him too but he had never asked her, if he ever did, they would already be together. He didn't cry, he wants to act tough although his heart was all empty, he act as though he is happy in front all of his friends, he decieved everyone and he decieved himself...

A very Lonely Soul

2004-09-23T17:48:00.000+08:00

My name is Lee Ker Hsien aka Ah Ker. I am 18 years old, born in 8th August 1986. I'm 174 cm tall, 50+ kg.
Horoscope: Leo ; Zodiac: Tiger I do not smoke, drinks alittle because my dad encourage me to. Used to be a cheerful boy, act like one now but actually I am very lonely because some one took half my heart away.
Why did she do that??? Because I accidentally hurt her and she decided to leave me. I know she still loves me, and I do still love her, if I say I had totally forgotten her, it must be a lie. Her image is still vividly in my mind. Although we still love each other but we can never be together because there is a hole that will never patch, a broken vase is a broken vase, even if you glued it back, there will still be a crack. I am sad, I am also very lonely... Why?? I don't know, maybe living with only half a heart is painful, I had to forget... Help me... I really wish to forget...